Meet Madi

The Love of My Life

Starting Over Again

I started blogging since 2005 but I have never been consistent. I would get into it, then get tired of it after awhile, and then close the account. This would be my fifth attempt, if you want to know.

There are a few different reasons why I couldn't make blogging a routine: One of them is that I felt that there should only be just one topic that I should be focusing on or writing about but I guess I just have to face the fact that I am not an expert on anything or one thing. Another is that when my blogs start to get personal, I tend to hold back like I don't want the whole world to know everything about me but again, I guess not everyone will really read everything I write- I can't be that interesting like a celebrity. Third, it's just so hard for me to get inspired. I feel that if I am not happy with every aspect of my life, I can't write anything. However, I feel that I should learn now how to ignore the negatives that surround me so only positive things can occure- like blogging!

I am hoping that somehow, while I share my life, journals, arts & crafts, I may be able to inspire and be inspired in the process.

Is It Really Saturday?

Jon had a product release today and so had to work.  Madi and I enjoy spending time together but on weekends we have our mind set to having daddy with us. 

Even though she can recite the seven days of the week, she really does not know yet if it’s Monday or whatever day it is exactly. So she wakes up without dad and I guess she assumes it is a normal weekday for us. She asks me to put on Sesame Street and I say, “there’s no Sesame Street today.” She then requests for Word World then I say, “no Word World.” I guess she realizes then that it feels like we’ve been together for more than five days now and that it’s a weekend and she tells me, “I miss Daddy.” 

It breaks my heart whenever I hear her say that she misses her dad. I want her to spend as much time as possible with Jon because (I think) usually girls like to be close to dads. For instance, my sister and I are both close to our dad. I hope my mom won’t be jealous when she reads this (because I love her as much as I love my dad) but there is just a different kind of bond between father and daughter. There are things you can’t do or can’t say when you are with mommy and vice versa. So that is why I feel it is important that Madi and Jon should have plenty of bonding time.

Oh, at Madi’s age, I can now say that there are times she enjoys doing stuff with Jon rather than me. Like she seem to like swimming more with him than with me, she likes only Jon to read her certain books, likes it more when Jon brushes her teeth and gives her a bath. I know why anyway... Jon lets her play with her toothbrush, her sponge... and everything else. It’s just a bit more fun for her. But that’s okay, she deserves to play and have fun so I like it when she and her dad have fun together and I... can take a BREAK. Lol.

And so... Madi and I are missing Daddy today... :( Sigh...

One More Week

Exactly a week from now, my baby will turn 2! I am so happy that in a span of two years, she has grown so much and learned a lot. She can recite and read the alphabets and numbers, knows the colors and shapes, can count with her fingers and things, she’s been attempting to write letters now, drawing, and painting, and most of all she talks in sentences... She says the most hilarious stuff and she amazes everyone. I just can’t be any prouder and happier of her.

Who's Getting Ready?

Madi is getting bigger now. She talks a lot, she knows a lot of things now (she may even pass for kinder already), and I think I can start leaving her bit by bit in a daycare or to her dad. I mean, I just want her to get used to not being with me all the time. So I am now starting to look for part-time jobs in the area. I worked for almost a decade with my last job so applying for jobs is kind of new to me. They do things differently now-from creating resumes to taking aptitude tests and interviews... Almost every process is online. I’m not sure if walking in to submit your application is still acceptable... Is it? Oh boy, I feel so old. But I have to learn the new ways no matter what. Sigh...